I was totally inspired by my friend/photographer Cheyenne to do this post…a reflection on this pregnancy. I’m just shy of 38 weeks right now…technically she could come anytime time even though our official due date is Jan 21.
Over the last week or so I’ve started thinking more about how the hard part is still ahead of me…the actual birth part (and of course the parenting thing!). Pregnancy itself has been physically draining, but I know bigger things are still coming and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous! Anyway, let’s re-cap the past 9 months:
Finding out we were pregnant.
If you’ve been following me for a while, you know it was a struggle for us to get pregnant. In fact, we were 100% moving forward with adoption and the day the agency received our contract and big fat check, I took a pregnancy test (I was 6 days late and I’m never late), and it was positive. Needless to say we were overjoyed and shocked and so happy with this news.
We had a few extra ultrasounds than normal because I spotted in the beginning – but of course we didn’t mind seeing baby on the screen as much as possible! We both secretly wanted a girl (Michael was convinced we were having a boy) and we were so pumped when our 20 week ultrasound confirmed….GIRL!
All of a sudden teeny tiny pink clothes became irresistible to me haha.
Some pregnancy highs…
– Feeling her kicks and visibly seeing her move around
– My vitamin D chewables. They seriously taste like candy and I look forward to them every morning.
– Extra attention. Everyone always told me to take advantage of the extra help/attention. I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about all of that, but you certainly feel a little extra special while being pregnant, haha.
– Setting up the nursery. This was fun for both of us and seeing it go from an ugly blue room with gross carpet, to a fresh white room with white floors, and seeing all the little details pull everything together was really exciting. It’s cozy yet bright and we are excited to bring her home and show her!
(above left: me at 12 weeks; above right: me at 16 weeks)
Some pregnancy lows…
– Morning sickness and exhaustion. While I never threw up (woohoo!) I definitely had daily nausea in the 1st trimester. I also became a nap person and I seriously neverrrrrrr took naps before this pregnancy, even to the point of fighting a nap. But when all of your energy is going towards building a human brain, you kinda have to just succumb to the pressure and curl up on the couch.
– Aches & pains. Weird stuff happens to your body. Muscles stretch and pull and weaken. My back gave out on me around 20 weeks which was terrible and I still haven’t bounced back from it. If I’m lucky enough to have a 2nd pregnancy I’m going to make a big effort to be in much better shape beforehand.
– Insane amounts of bathroom breaks. I had a small bladder before pregnancy, but it’s seriously out of control now. The pressure on the bladder is very uncomfortable and I’m honestly so tired of sitting on the toilet haha. Nothing you can do about it either because you’re also supposed to drink way more water, so it’s a real catch 22.
(FYI I’ve already had to pause typing this post 3x to go pee.)
– 3rd trimester insomnia. I guess it’s a real thing that effects a lot of pregnant women. I was certainly not expecting this and it’s suuuuuuch a bummer. However, I think my body has adjusted to getting very little sleep, so I should be slightly more prepared for nightly feedings now (at least that’s what I’m telling myself).
(above: me at 20 weeks)
Some pregnancy surprises…
Since this is my first time experiencing all of this, there have definitely been some surprises along the way.
– The body changes were surprising. Not the growing of the belly & boobs, but just how physically weak I became. I’ve really had to force myself to just take it easy which has been hard because I’m typically an active/rough person, so it was a little surprising to experience my body responding differently to normal daily activity. I’m definitely excited about getting back to my usual level of activity without all the aches and pains as soon as possible!
– No food cravings. I was a little nervous about my weight gain and cravings because I loooooove food (read: carbs and sugar). Plus I had already gained some weight prior to getting pregnant. However, I really didn’t have any cravings, and I never felt the need to change the way I ate, or the amount. So far I’ve only gained about 25lbs (which is impressive considering I had to go through holidays).
– Varicose viens. Say whaaaat?! Haha, yes I have a few now…but from everything I’ve read, it’s common and will most likely go away.
(above: me at 24 weeks)
Anticipating the arrival
We are both so ready for her to get here so we can physically hold her and look at her! Each day is more uncomfortable and I’ve been having more contractions and lower back pains lately but that just means the end is near! I know she needs to stay in there as long as possible, but we’re ready for her anytime now…
(above: me at 37.5 weeks)