Like a Sponge

I remember when I was FIRST starting my business back in 2010 I had little confidence that I would “make it” (even though I can’t tell you what “making it” means). And I remember thinking, “If I could just get to where that photographer is, I’d be happy. I’d be content.”

That’s such a silly way to think. Right?!

If I’ve learned anything in these past 3 years, it’s how INHIBITING that thought process is. I eventually found myself where that photographer is” and the only thing that happened when I got there was: I still wasn’t content.

That’s the ugly truth.

Whatever my definition of “making it” means, I’m by no means there. But, thankfully, I’ve gotten to this point where I don’t want to put my WHOLE identity into being a photographer. My life is so much more than that, and the moment I realized that, my role as a photographer, and a business owner, changed.

Now, instead of wishing I was some place else in my career, I wish to be like a sponge.

I wish to soak up the joys of running a small business, and being my own boss, and having the flexibility to spend time with my husband during the afternoon, and giving my clients a great experience, and most importantly, I want to soak up more wisdom and knowledge.

This past month has been a truly reflective month for me, and I’m grateful for that. I’ve re-evaluated the way I think about my marriage, my friendships, what I want for the business, what I want for myself. And what I want is to keep learning…keep soaking up new experiences…keep building relationships…keep maturing…and to always be listening and looking.

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